Writing elation and frustration

Writing Elation

2009-09-06T22:33:00.000-07:00

SO! I actually finished something! YAY! though it wasn't the Syl Dhan Wars, it was a Script. its about 90 pages, its a drama dealing with Suicide, life choices and life views. And everyone who has read it has loved it. And a few of them even cried. I call it SIgned A.T.S and I am currently looking for a producer or director... or someone who can introduce me to a producer or director who would be interested in filming my script.

On the upside I am also working on a Sci Fi Tv series for which I have the first 3 episodes completely mapped in my head, and the whole story arc for the first 2 seasons in mind. I'll have to find out how to submit that as well... We'll see.

So everyone who doesn't read this. Wish me luck.

106,000 and going nowhere :(

2009-06-30T07:31:00.000-07:00

SO I have had a couple months with no progress done on my great work.... Is it great? I wouldn't know, no one bothers to read it :( But I hope so, as it is getting a look-see from a respected agent. I was told I needed an edit, not a big thing, most books do. I do not feel daunted by this task, though at the time I did feel vastly disappointed in myself for having a professional point out errors that I had already seen - and not bothered to fix as yet. But ah well, IT ISN'T EVEN FINISHED!!!!!!!

I do still plan on continuing this three book saga of the Syl Dhan Wars, focusing on spirituality and technology as a guide to self awareness. It's not preachy! it has lots to do with war! and nobody wants to be in a war, but nobody minds reading or watching war, if it is written well, as people generally do enjoy vicarious heroism, fear and the thought of fighting for a cause.

One of my quotes, taken directly from MY story, from one of MY characters (I do love my characters). "The saddest thing about war isn't the death and carnage that it creates, but that we so often call it necessary." King Elmer Raenos of Tydor. - This may or may not be an adaptation of a quote from somewhere else, I certainly hope not. The more I repeat it the more I think I must have heard it somewhere. Little old me couldn't have possibly come up with that insight!

As the the reason for my lack of progress. PEOPLE! love them I do, but when you see people EVERY DAY for MONTHS, it becomes hard to focus on the things you need to do to advance your career. It's difficult being popular sometimes. That, and my place is like a halfway house for the homeless. But what can you do? You can't leave people out on the street, its just not humane. Like I said, I do love my friends, but I am looking forward to at least 3 days of peace, and hopefully some progress on this story. METANOIA!

So peace out people. Keep it green!

100,000

2009-05-04T00:04:00.001-07:00

So we've hit 100,000, we're on the last few chapters, the last day of conflict in this tale. All should go well, though I don't know how convoluted it will all be. I counted out how many people to see through the eyes of - 26! argh... that's a lot, I didn't consciously set out to make it that way... but I will distill later, during the edit... hopefully it will all still come across as its supposed to. For now though! 100,000 YAY! chapter 20, 419 pages.

EJ.

90,000 WORDS HUZZAH!

2009-04-26T06:41:00.000-07:00

ok, so I just got up to 90,080 words, and I got really excited, thought to tell the absolutely no one who reads this damn blog. I am in part three, which as I suspected is beginning like a breeze, comparitively to part 2 which was just too heavy. These last 10,000 words were written in just over a week, and I plan on doubling that progress. YAY! go me.

EJ.

79,000

2009-04-17T00:25:00.000-07:00

SO, chapter 17, page 329, word count 79,012. Not bad, not bad. I don't know much is left on chapter 17, its a pretty choppy chapter. But then I am on to chapter 18, the last for part 2. Once part 3 starts everything is going to be a lot easier, I am sure of it. We get to write about the war. About the people in the war. What they're doing and who gets to die. YAY!

I have set myself the goal of 90,000 by next friday. I m pretty sure that it is a achievable goal. it's less than 2,000 words a day. I should be fine.

Wish me luck.

IN MORIBUND

2009-04-11T09:26:00.000-07:00

She walked among them for a time,
Twisted limbs and blinded eyes,
Reminder of the days long past
When men and women stood aghast
To the view the world as one was taught
The wars in which the soldiers fought
In frail misunderstanding

She moved along to solitude
Her appearance more than destitute,
A pilgrimage of damaged faith
The scars so thick upon her face,
She held but one pugnacious thought
regarding what the world had taught
In mild condescension

She gathered soon a following
Blind as well, but differently
They fell in step and marched behind
The cattle drawn to suicide
While she ahead, would still say naught
The path she walked was so fraught
In chains of apprehension

She governed now a largish town
In her silence wisdom found
The blood of many upon the ground
The men she killed made not a sound
But all who fell had one last thought
Remembering what the world had taught
In misinterpretation

She fell eventually to her rage
With no one left to dig her grave
While blinded eyes still saw no wrong
And twisted limbs were twice as strong
She cried out what she had been taught
From a world in which wars were fought
For naught more than an absent thought
In human understanding

2 DAYS LATER

2009-03-30T01:07:00.001-07:00

not a great load has been done. But the milestone 300 pages has been reached with 72,000 words. I thought that may be worth mentioning. I am up to Chapter 17, the 2nd last chapter of this, Part 2.

YAY FOR ME!

I'll update when I hit the next milestone.

Going well

2009-03-28T23:45:00.000-07:00

So we've hit the milestone of 70,000 words at 295 pages. Not bad, not bad, I say. We're over half way there. Just 2 more chapters left in this, PART 2. Then we can move on to bringing all the threads together in one place and giving everyone the conclusion they deserve, in PART 3 of Metanoia. I can't wait to see we're my characters are taking me.

It has been a long and bumpy road thus far, but it seems I am getting back into the swing of things. I have let go of all my stress, and am just living in the moment with my characters. They are some great people, and I hope you all come to love and admire them as I have.

So wish me luck with this. I have set my deadline to the end of April. At this point I think it is entirely possible. Lets hope it stays that way.

EJ.

FINALLY!

2009-03-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

So after a couple of months of stress, which didn't help the writing process, I have written 3000 words in roughly 4 days. Which isn't much, I know, but it is a lot better than the nothing I was producing for a few weeks there. My brain is ticking over, and spending most of the time with its favourite characters, and so HOPEFULLY! I will be finished this MS within the next couple of months. I don't have a deadline, but I would like one :P

So happiness abounds in the life of writing at the moment. Lets all just hope it stays that way.

61,000

2009-02-05T21:45:00.000-08:00

Over a month and I have only written 6000 words. Pretty pitiful isn't it? I have to grow some big ones and just tell people to leave me alone so I have the time to do more. At the moment I am so rarely at home :(

Ideally I would like to finish this novel by the end of the month, but realistically, it will take 2 months I think. I do after all have as much to go again as I have already done. I may have written 45,000 in one month, but I've only written 20,000 in the 3 months since. So we'll see how we go.

Wish me luck, keep it green.

EJ.

55,000 odd and about time too

2009-01-02T00:35:00.000-08:00

So I have had some trouble actually sitting down and writing over the past couple of months. Time has had a lot to do with it. I had an accident and was fixing my car, and then was easily distracted by needy friends. Then of course there was the festive season, buying presents and spending time with family. The social appointments have yet to end, but my writing is still progressing.

So what's this story about? the no-one who reads this will wonder. Well, quantum mechanics and physics, along with metaphysical, theosophical and theological ideals, ideas and theories. Of course there is war and relationships and all that kind of thing, all - I hope - quite gripping and realistic :P but of course, that is just me being optimistic about my writing style.

Blah, If I don't stop now I am just going to start babbling.

EJ.

blehhhh

2008-11-03T07:16:00.000-08:00

So I think I know why my writing has been so slow. Just 1000 words in 3 days! yuk! I have rego coming up for my car, my oil filter and oil HAS to be changed, and I have a massive oil leak! I really can't stop stressing about it. The car should pass on every other point... but will I have the money to fix the oil leak?

I do still think about my story, but it is so tainted by my worry for my car its just not clear. I am taking it to the mechanic today, so if all is good writing should resume as per normal. If not... Well, we'll just have to see how badly my writing is affected.

WISH ME LUCK!

ARGH!!!!!!!!

2008-10-31T03:29:00.000-07:00

Tff-eh! Tff-ah! that's what I have to say about todays effort. It dragged on and on and nothing felt like it was clear. I know WHAT I wanted to write, but articulating it. . . Let's just say my descriptive skills leave something to be desired. This scene was roughly 5 pages of description with only a couple of lines of dialogue. Can't be that hard! I thought, as I can see everything clearly in my mind. But NOOOOO! can't be easy can it.

Upside is I wrote nearly an extra 200 words on yesterday, being 1,239 words today and a total of 47,037 words. I didn't reach my 5000 as I'd wanted to, but maybe... just maybe, if I am lucky enough, everything will be easier tomorrow... and I will have so many words, that it won't matter that I failed today.

We'll just have to wait and see. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself. But when one has goals, and those goals are not met. . . It is irritating.

First 45,000

2008-10-30T05:13:00.000-07:00

So I sit here wondering idly what to do next. The first 45,000 words came out in less than a month, not pushing too hard. A few places I had to stop and do a little bit of research, but thats bound to happen every now and then. But progress has slowed. I have gone from a steady 2-3000 words a day, to 3000 words in the past 4 days. I feel lazy.

I haven't lost interest, and I haven't lost the plot, but everything is taking minutes to come out where before it took seconds. What happened? I feel like the pump has been cut and now all that comes out is dribbles. grrr! I say.

1049 words so far today, and I have been awake for 12 hours! I suppose for some people that would be acceptable, but I was accustomed to my pace, and now I must rant out my frustration. I had planned on having 50,000 words out by the 1st of Nov. Perhaps tomorrow? A staggering 5,000? It could happen I suppose. Perhaps I need to do more research.?Perhaps I need a break? Perhaps I like to say perhaps?

My cat is insisting that right now my lap is the best place to sit, and so is trying to push the laptop away. Amusing.... Perhaps I should pay attention to him.

EJ.