blehhhh

So I think I know why my writing has been so slow. Just 1000 words in 3 days! yuk! I have rego coming up for my car, my oil filter and oil HAS to be changed, and I have a massive oil leak! I really can't stop stressing about it. The car should pass on every other point... but will I have the money to fix the oil leak?

I do still think about my story, but it is so tainted by my worry for my car its just not clear. I am taking it to the mechanic today, so if all is good writing should resume as per normal. If not... Well, we'll just have to see how badly my writing is affected.

WISH ME LUCK!

ARGH!!!!!!!!

Tff-eh! Tff-ah! that's what I have to say about todays effort. It dragged on and on and nothing felt like it was clear. I know WHAT I wanted to write, but articulating it. . . Let's just say my descriptive skills leave something to be desired. This scene was roughly 5 pages of description with only a couple of lines of dialogue. Can't be that hard! I thought, as I can see everything clearly in my mind. But NOOOOO! can't be easy can it.

Upside is I wrote nearly an extra 200 words on yesterday, being 1,239 words today and a total of 47,037 words. I didn't reach my 5000 as I'd wanted to, but maybe... just maybe, if I am lucky enough, everything will be easier tomorrow... and I will have so many words, that it won't matter that I failed today.

We'll just have to wait and see. Perhaps I am being too hard on myself. But when one has goals, and those goals are not met. . . It is irritating.

First 45,000

So I sit here wondering idly what to do next. The first 45,000 words came out in less than a month, not pushing too hard. A few places I had to stop and do a little bit of research, but thats bound to happen every now and then. But progress has slowed. I have gone from a steady 2-3000 words a day, to 3000 words in the past 4 days. I feel lazy.

I haven't lost interest, and I haven't lost the plot, but everything is taking minutes to come out where before it took seconds. What happened? I feel like the pump has been cut and now all that comes out is dribbles. grrr! I say.

1049 words so far today, and I have been awake for 12 hours! I suppose for some people that would be acceptable, but I was accustomed to my pace, and now I must rant out my frustration. I had planned on having 50,000 words out by the 1st of Nov. Perhaps tomorrow? A staggering 5,000? It could happen I suppose. Perhaps I need to do more research.?Perhaps I need a break? Perhaps I like to say perhaps?

My cat is insisting that right now my lap is the best place to sit, and so is trying to push the laptop away. Amusing.... Perhaps I should pay attention to him.

EJ.